Forgiven

Wven when we make mistakes

We fallon our face

Or lose the race

God still loves us

And we give him praise

We live for him and

He gives us life

The biggest mistake

Washed away by the biggest sacrifice

Forgiven

Thanks to one man

And his perfect life

Blood was shed to dry the tears

Only to create more

This time of joy

And of thanks

Praise be to Jesus

For the truest act of love

Even when we think

I'm not worth it

God knows you are

That's all there is now

We never know when this story will end

So just be sure to know

Deep down in your heart

Jesus loves you

And you are forgiven

The War Within

I'm so confused by you

You never seem to make any sense

It's only truth for a while

Then you're changed

Like the scent of the wind

Its all your girl

But is it?

I can't tell if its true

I would say yes

But you say no

I pretty much give up on you

It's never clear to you

The way I feel so deeply for you

So just be

But over there

Thats all I have left to say

If you dont like it

This pain

Next time dont lie

Deal?

I thought not

Please dont take the rain when you leave

I prefer to be in it

These tears blend in and I claim unconsciousness

Hopefully it stays with you

This attitude of pride

Because its all I can remember of you

Everything I hated to love about you

Read your own words

Take a step back and see the hurt you inflict

Please stop trying to impress me

Im not blind anymore

Im so unenthused

So little truth in this wound

Dont flatter yourself 

I cant handle your pride 

I know I'm off key

I cant fix these things

Just be in your perfect denial

I'll be in Jesus love

Where I know you wont be to hurt me

You're welcome

But you're so not

Good because I do not need your help

Or do I?

Forget this

Like legit

**Circa 2010

Because I said so

I enjoy writing, Chinese food, social media, babies, oreos, swiss chocolate, COFFEE, marine life, rain, and Gilmore Girls. Completely Obsessed with Jesus, band boys, anything vintage or gold, and hardcore head-banging music.  I'm Fascinated by tattoos and dreadlocks but would never get either one.  I love to laugh and I'm equally easy to entertain or confuse.  I'm laid back with more patience for people than technology.  I never sleep, which makes me even more crazy and confused than necessary.  I take way too many pictures of myself and I prefer to only buy things on sale.  My older brother is my best friend, I trust him more than anyone else on earth.  My nick name is Nana, which I like a lot better than Hannah Banana or Hannah Montana. I hate being treated like a child and I hate being told to "live my life" before I get married because whats the point of that without someone by my side?  I firmly believe that I do in fact understand now that I'm older and regret being infuriated by that when I was younger.  I don't "rebel" because I have the coolest most understanding parents who raised me right from the start.  I'm not smart but I sometimes fake it.   I google the most random nonsense and clearly like talking about myself.  None of my friends live near me, so thats a bummer, but somehow I survive.  I'm more desperate for a boyfriend than necessary and I cant wait to have a family of my own.  Concerts are my happy place, did I mention my adoration of band boys?!.. Yeah.. That. I don't believe atheists or boring people actually exist.  I'm not as innocent as people presume upon meeting me, I'm also not perfect, at all, and I'm also quite annoying.  I think people are lovely and that everyone has a story and reason they are the way that they are.  It's strange but I love myself the way that I am and I wont change just to fit in.  I attend cosmetology school not because "doing hair" is my dream but because providing for myself is.  I know people love me but its still a wonderful feeling to be reminded of it.  My goal in life is to spread the love of Christ everywhere and to do so in the most extravagant, beautiful fashion possible.